Blindfolded and reaching I find,
The start of that which was bound
Undeterred, I pressed on
Not knowing anything wrong
The smell of blood caught me
The liquid to my touch, thick and sticky
“No, my dear” He said quietly
“Do not step back, press on directly.”
The wounds I felt were deep
Her moans from pain I reaped
Understanding nothing, I continued
As his reassurances were issued
Finally, feeling the pain I knew
What was not within my view
He took my blindfold to confirm
That which I could now discern
I looked at the reflection where I reached
The blood and sores I beeseeched
I had not known what I asked
Yet now, my die was cast
The Trickster laughed and smiled at me
Yet ever his eyes wept tears for me
“You locked yourself in this trap” said he
“It’s spikes and thorns still tight in thee”
“Fear of failure, fear of anger
Your personal jailers clamor
Their protection ended long ago
And now they keep pieces unknown”
“Learning is healing, yet pain exists
You called it to you, and did insist
Now take the shards back from the abyss
Accept the pieces in as they fit”
I stared in disbelief,
How could I, in my grief
Ask for such a thing of hurt?
Yet I did – my soul, I tore apart
Now the healing has begun
The pain comes as I awaken
But now the true work is being done
As I slowly integrate into one.
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The spirit within me burns.
It burns with passion for things that I do in my life.
It burns with desire to be stretched
It yearns to shine within the eye.
The Spirit longs to burn that which does not help
The Spirit longs to fill the space left with warmth and flame.
It burns with strength.
It burns with desire,
It burns to touch other spirits.
It is not mine to say ‘turn it away’ because it shines too brightly.
It is not mine to hide, afraid that I would burn another.
It is mine to be the reflection.
The Spirit is mine to allow its energy to saturate me;
It’s mine to allow the warmth to flow from my fingers,
Dripping onto the things that I touch
Changing those things unavoidably.
For that is the nature of the Spirit.
Take your prayers and thoughts and shove it
We made this mess, we live it
Day by day, night by night
The burning of the world never ends
So you don’t think you had an effect?
When was the last time you tried to act?
ACT – with a vote?
Or ask why?
Did you try? No, you didn’t.
Too afraid of loosing your hate?
The hate sitting in your bones
Too afraid to lose “us” vs “them”?
Afraid of the human under that skin?
Afraid of that connection?
You don’t give a fuck about all that
Or anyone but yourself
Let them die,
Let them burn
You’ve got more important things to do
Like fighting for YOUR rights
YOUR free speech
YOUR right to be loud and free
It’s YOUR gun, YOUR Ammo
And that’s alright
Cuz your rights just killed again
So cherish that hate
that blessed emotion
Keep it close so we don’t touch
And the world will burn
Tired and weary I went
Up is down and down is up
To seek some sort of peace
Or an ear for my lament
The journey was not soothing
Joyful colors gave no solace
Signs of life noted, not happily
I simply tread on, smiles unstirring
I reached the place of choosing
And spoke my questions all
In the hopes I would find answers
And actions of the Gods, approving
The seer came out, awakened
And stared deeply within
My mind and the world known was reviewed
Until the voice rang out, unshaken
“The life you choose is your own.
They have chosen for themselves.
Dearest one, you know it cannot change
What has grown cannot be unsown”
“Reach out to those that hurt
Find solace in the joining
Share the strength together
Accept that all still play a part”
“Guard thy magic well
Attend to thy wounds carefully
Time for change will be at hand
But for now, hurts will still prevail.”
“I know you wish for more
Perhaps a nicer tale of change?
Know it sits, patiently waiting
Soon to be set for your ever more”
“I hear thy mind race for answers
Trying to make sense or find meaning
Perhaps no sense is what is meant, for now
Instead use thy heart to heal thy cancer”
The seer said nothing further
It was not the comfort I sought
Instead, everything & nothing was said
And now I must leave, ever the wiser
It came to me today
The picture, freshly taunting
Salt to the wound, it was
The battlefield, always haunting
My eyes filled, my heart ached
Memories came flooding back
Of wasted time, wrapped in fear
And battle skills I sorely lacked
Courage had I, Heart too
It took all that I had
Just to wear the colors
And to hold my sword, armor clad
Oh to go back then
Just to try once more
Prove what I say I was
The Lady Fighter in that war
Now, body broken, spirit still healing
I stare as the picture speaks
It whispers hope if I let it
Yet also taunts me in its shrieks
I grow stronger now, yet cannot tell
What the fates have in store for me
Perhaps yet I can answer the call
Perhaps yet, I could still be.
Standing in the meadow
The sun high above
It reaches all around me
No surface is untouched
The light touches my soul
It reaches every piece of me
The brightness radiates
Blessing my sight with clarity
The light touches my past
I see that which was kept hidden
The light touches the present
That which is true for me now
I see now, the many sides
How multifaceted gifts are
Life grows in many ways
Always nourished by the sun
It’s time for gentle rest
Hearts open, accepting all that is
I am thankful and happy
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Storming away I go
Muscles tight, poised for flight
Can’t I go further faster?
Down the hill, around the bend
Trees in sight sway slowly
Into the different world
Violets, whites and greens greet me
Dragonflies send their thoughtful hello
Over the bridge
Silence grows louder
Heard before seen
The babbling chimes begin
As the friendly stream winds its way
Left turn into green glossiness
Dried death left as new life explodes
Surprised squeals and rustling with no origin
Halfway through, absurdities peek in
Dismissed by sight of something…
Whoops! She saw me!!
Smiles take me to the scary stillness
Floating nearby, maybe gone too soon?
Walk across the way
one last encore, over the bridge
one last babble, last patch of white and purple
Thankful for the journey, I think about going again