Yesterday I presented a circle casting for a ritual I’m planning next week. I very much wanted the rite to be somewhat general in its layout so that the participants could take away things from it that they needed, but not feel like they were pushed into something that felt like a specific rite from a specific spectrum of paganism (e.g., a ‘Heathen’ or ‘Wiccan’ rite). I also didn’t want it to feel like things were simply ‘pulled’ from those specific spectrums.
So a lot of the rite are things that I have written specifically for this ceremony. But when it came time to write an invocation to divinity, I found I was blocked from writing anything down, but couldn’t figure out why. So after some prayers and mental soul-searching, the prayers below came out. After that, I was able to write the rest of my ceremony.
I’m still not sure if what I’ve written are more invocations or dictations of what these two Gods mean to me, but they both had to come out before I could write anything to any other deity. I’m ecstatic at how they turned out. I truly do enjoy both and their personal feel to me. They feel very powerful and profound. But after looking them over and preparing to transfer them from the scrap paper to my poem collection, I realized that my requirements to these Gods was not yet finished.
I needed to share both of these prayers here, on this blog.
Even as I type this post, I am still fighting doing this. And the excuses are continuing to flying around in my head for why I shouldn’t do it. Today is the autumnal equinox. I should be posting about that instead of doing this. I just posted yesterday, I should wait and post this next week or later because I don’t like doing a lot of posts and then nothing at all for weeks on end. And the one that is really stopping me; these prayers are too personal to publish.
But I’m not getting out of this, and I already know that.
The more I think about it, the more I realize that perhaps I’ve not been ‘putting myself out there’ as much as I should be, or how they want me to. I’ve talked months before on this blog about building a religious path for myself; one that has specific prayers, specific traditions and offerings that speak to who I am, what I believe and whom I serve. I’ve also put myself out there as serving the pagan community as a whole. But I’ve stayed away from labeling myself as anything other than a pagan. These prayers, with their kennings and truths very much do that. They are an open book to how I view myself and my relationship with these Gods.
So without further excuses, I offer the prayers here. Feel free to comment and discuss. I know I’ll be thinking about this exercise for some time as I figure out my adversity to doing it.
Invocation to Loki
Hail to Thee!
Laugaz, my light
Lover, my longing
Fire Jotun, my power
Mind tester, my teacher
Sight minder, my vision
Bound God, my burden
Flame hair, my delight
Cinder maker, my wrath
Hail to you, my Loki
Invocation to Odin
Hail, All Father
Song singer, my voice for you
Wisdom seeker, may I learn your cunning
Teacher, may I learn your teachings
Warrior, may I grow in prowess
One Eyed, may I seek to know and understand
Yule Figure, may I learn joy and unknowing
Rune God, may I learn the Runes
Shapeshifter, may I learn the Seidh
Slain God – may I learn to give of myself
May I ever be your daughter