A good friend came over yesterday. He’s a Neolithic Shaman that has significant dealings with Odin, whom I also have sworn oaths to. What is very interesting about this is that I knew of his dealings with Odin, but I wasn’t planning on getting his input about the workings I’m doing on my own; I wanted my workings with Odin to not be influenced by what others think. I’ve had enough about that in the Native American work I do (if you don’t have the papers you are not Native, etc.) and I wanted the work with Odin to be my own.
Odin didn’t see it that way. So before I realized what I was doing, I invited him over. Yesterday he came for the visit, a bottle of home made mead was opened, and before I knew it, I’m sitting in the hot seat answering Odin’s questions through his ‘horsed’ servant. (I think the husband enjoyed the encounter, because he ensured my friend’s glass continually stayed full of mead, which kept Odin around for quite awhile.)
The questions were uncomfortable. The entire situation was uncomfortable. I felt like a little kid answering questions for a test that I didn’t study for. But I recognize that it was something I had to do. And even after my friend left, the work was still not done for me, having promised to send prayers of smoke for another friend, and then journeying to finish the conversation with Odin.
I’m still not sure what or why the Gods are so focused on us humans, and I’ll probably never know the true reason why. Perhaps here is something there that it seems to me we can express for them. Perhaps it is just their infatuation with us because we are such volatile and inexplicable creatures whose moods and actions cannot be predicted. But if we choose to become tools of the Gods, we have to be ready to go through and deal with our own shortcomings. And that is painful.
I recognize this morning that my being on the ‘hot seat’ yesterday was such a trial. For another blogger, going to see a doctor about her mental health and the repercussions of that for her life is a trial. My husband found himself dealing with his own shadows that popped out of nowhere this morning. Those almost derailed him from his mundane tasks, but he pushed through and is still moving forward. But here again is another example of a trial.
Being on the ‘hot seat’ may not mean talking to a God for a couple hours on a Sunday. When we choose to be active participants in our religion, everything we do and everything we go through is connected to our work with the Gods. The type of religion or belief doesn’t matter. All that matters is that we do our best to move forward in whatever situation we find ourselves in. By doing so we prove to ourselves we are stronger than we think, and the Gods smile on us. Even if we do not get the outcome that we expect, we are still moving forward in our evolution and doing what they wish of us.
Today, may everyone that needs strength receive it, and may we all recognize we are worthy and capable enough to go through the trials that have been set before us.