I had thought that 2016 was going to be all about Odin, Loki and the other Northern teachings that I had to learn. I knew some of those teachings were going to take me out of my comfort zones, strip me bare and remold me into the shape of a person that was more true to my ancestry and more of a reflection of my spirit.
Little did I know that the focus was to include my ancestry as a native to Turtle Island as well.
Last year I was gifted an (unawakened) Native American Sacred Pipe. It is meant to be a personal one, made with an elbow bowl. I have been repeatedly told by a Native friend that the pipe needs to be awakened. Today I received another message that the pipe requires awakening, but this time it was in the form of a rune reading done by a Northern Tradition Shaman. A rune reading….seriously?
Ok, I’ll take the hint before it becomes a clue-by-four to the forehead.
I was planning on waiting until I knew everything about that pipe I could know. I wanted the ceremony for it to go like clockwork; everything spelled out and memorized, rehearsed and the moon to be in the right position. And instead, I am putting things together on the fly to be ready the next new moon, when the pipe will be ready.
I just don’t know if I will be.
A personal pipe is a sacred and its care should not be taken lightly. It is a responsibility you take on for life. I know this, and I do not want to disrespect this in any shape or fashion. But like the last post about Odin, I recognize now that I have let these responsibilities being offered to me scare me to the point of inaction. It is time for me to trust the spirit within myself, the knowledge that I have gained over the years and my instinct. My intention is good, and because of this I need to move on even though I might cause some disrespect from my ignorance. If I do, I apologize and learn from it.
I believe now that Odin has a piece of this to play. Maybe not in the ceremony for the pipe, but I believe him to be expecting me to pick up my responsibilities and move forward with them. Perhaps this means that this year will be full of situations where I get to practice that which I had forgotten and learn new skills based upon those foundations. I cannot say that I am not scared by this. But if that is what I am to expect I will do my best to not run, nor to freeze with fear. I am more than what I have become and it is time to take up that mantle, no matter how scary. If this is truly the will of the Gods, So Shall it be.